Today is a bit overwhelming..
Just knowing that in a couple of week (2 to be exact) I will have a newborn baby in the house, crying, and another person to depend on me 100%.
I know I wasn't the BEST mother to Drayton but I did all I could and that makes for something right?!?! I know I'm doing stuff wrong, and may need to lighten up a bit sometimes on him but I think I'm doing the best I can and I believe every mother feels like they could be doing something different.
I'm excited to have another little baby since mine is getting to "big" as he says.... and to see my little baby become a big brother.
I know he is going to be just fine, he is super excited and I have done everything I can do to help make him feel loved still and make him feel like he can help out with Brody i.e. when I buy Brody something at Walmart I let Drayton help pick it out and decide what we are going to buy him I let him help paint his letters and (when I get around to it) help paint his bedroom.
My biggest fear is Drayton feeling like he is going to be pushed to the side for this new baby since it's only been him for the last 3.5 years. I don't want him to feel like he isn't getting attention because lets face it the baby will be taking a lot of time along with housework and stuff. I know I know EVERYONE has multiple kids and they are just fine but I bet NONE of you can sit there and tell me that you didn't fear the same.??
I guess I will just have to keep doing my best and let Drayton help with as much as I can with Brody when he decides to arrive.
of course I worried about the same thing with Raylin when Clay got here, especially since mommmy was all she had everyday of her life!!! big changes for sure! but when Clay napped, I just did things with her and even now, we get my parents to watch Clay for a few hours and take Raylin to do a special as she calls it, and that makes her feel really good! He'll be great and will do just fine!!! (:
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